"Why am I here?"

Everyone asks the question sometime in there life, "why am I here?." "What is my purpose in life?" etc...

Some of us find out the answers to these and many similar questions, but most of us are just muddling through hoping we are getting it right.

Only God knows our purpose and works that we are meant to do, and sometimes its only after we have done the works that we realize that we didn't do it for ourselves, that there was a higher purpose or "power" involved with making it happen.

"Hind sight is better than 20/20 with the Lord leading the way!"

If you think that you are stuck in some kind of rut and aren't really sure why your here or what your purpose in life is, Look Back-Forward.

Looking Back-Forward means that if you really take the time to look at your life and where you have been and done, you can probably figure out where your life is headed forward.

Even the littlest thing that you have done in your life served some kind of purpose and most likely the Lord and his Father put you there to do it. Finding a task or good work that you have done before over and over may have been trying to tell you something. The task could have seemed the most mundane and something you've done a thousand times, but who's to say that maybe one day that you did this task, someone or something wasn't affected in a positive and good way.

I myself have been seriously wondering why I'm at my current employment. Its a job that has gone down the toilet for me, I started there with the prospects of staying for a long time and even thought at one point I could do it till I retired, but now, times have changed and the business has changed and they keeping "updating" things to the point that it's driving people away from the position, which is there goal because they eventually want to get rid of my job. Granted unless the whole world just up and starts only using plastic for spending all of a sudden, then there will always be someone needed to do what I do. Things are getting almost ridiculous to the point that its driving me mad and I am hating what the job does to me when I'm there.

The hardship that I face at work is probably more put upon by myself than the actual work place, but that I think is because I'm bored with the bureaucracy junkola that I'm faced with everyday and with co-workers who do nothing they don't absolutely have to and don't willingly learn anything to know anything more about their own job.

My purpose there I thought was coming to an end soon and I could move on to something else the Lord needed me to do, but I'm still stuck there. This job has served multiple purposes and to me has nothing left for me but heartache and big hook for the devil to keep hold on me.

This job came when I really needed one and it has been a link to people that I have helped in many ways outside the realm of the workplace. I met people that needed spiritual help and was very aware after the fact, what I had done was the Lord's work through me. This job has also enabled me to move to different locations that led me to living with the most wonderful man God could have ever dropped in my lap to marry.

The past though is why I feel that I need to move on, because looking back all the jobs and places I've been were for reasons and I performed my duty and He led me on to something else. He put me in jobs that I never would have chosen for myself without Him putting the idea in my head, but He needed me there for something or someone and He gave me what I needed to accomplish his goal.

I guess that is why I feel that this can't be it, He has used me in so many capacities that served others that I just can't believe that I'm through. There are things I do outside of work that I truly enjoy giving myself or what ever is needed to, but for some reason I feel there could be something I could do all the time to do more for the Lord and his Father.

Looking Back-Forward for me, is trying to find the next place I'm needed to help someone else, the people at my current work won't help themselves much less be available for help from anyone else.

So I guess I have shown you that your not alone in the pondering questions that probably keep people up most nights. We are all here for a reason and we are all needed for different jobs and works for God. The littlest thing can make a big difference in so many lives.

Don't get discouraged, even though its very easy to do so, especially if you don't feel that you have done anything with you life for him or yourself. You have probably done great things and our stinky thinking that we put on ourselves prevent you from seeing the good parts and chapters of your life. If, there really aren't any good chapter, then you only have yourself to blame if you don't break out and make things better the way God intended.

No good work or act of kindness toward the sourest, unappreciative or even grateful creature goes unseen and unrewarded by our Father.